Beyond the shiny box

It’s strange how change works, it is never easy to deal with even tho it happens all the time.
Like how you get used to living with someone. You come home every day and even tho they may not be there you still know that they reside there, in that same house, with you. You come home and see their stuff around the house and you may be the only one home but you know that there is always the other person. No matter how many days either one is gone for, the house never feels lonely.

Then one day you come home, their things are gone, and suddenly the house feels empty. You knew it was coming, you knew this was going to happen, and yet, you still never realized the gravity of the situation until it happened. You come home for the first time to a lonely house. That feeling of someone else living there even if they were never home, suddenly disappears. You come home now to an empty place. Its quiet so you play music just to have some noise. You think, “hasn’t it always been this quiet tho?” The answer is yes, but why now do I really notice it? Is it just simply the difference between knowing that someone else lived here, regardless of the fact that they were almost never home?
This house was once always full and now it feels soo empty. This place that I come home to, the place that is My empty home.

*walks quietly into the room and looks around*
*in the middle of the room is a small square table with a chair on each side*
*above it is a lamp hanging from the ceiling, hovering a few feet from the table*
*the light inside the lamp is a very dim, yellowish light*
*looking around the room you can’t really see anything else, it’s too dark and the walls seem to not exists, just darkness*

*he walks over towards the table to sit when he hears a voice*
“So, you’re back here again I see”
*without so much as a sound he pulls out a chair and takes his seat*
“Oh, so you are just going to ignore me again I take it? Typical”
“Leave him alone, Rick.”
“Ah come one Jack, I’m just giving him a hard time”
“Rick!”
“Ok ok I got it, I’ll stop”

*looks up no expression, just a blank look in his eyes*
“You two never change, always the same with you.” in a monotone voice.

“Dude it’s always the same with you, I mean…”

“Oh shut up!” suddenly shouting cutting Rick off. “I’m so freakin tired of hearing that from you of all people Rick!”
“It’s always, ” mimicking Rick’s voice “Oh you brought this upon yourself, or this is what you get for always trusting people so easily, or you know you’re always just going to end up getting hurt”
“Well, I’m done hearing that! It’s always the same with you! That isn’t the case this time. It’s not like that. Nothing wrong has been done.

“Then why are you here?”

“If I knew the answer to that Jack, I wouldn’t be here..”

*rick and jack each pull up a chair and sit at the table*

It seems just like yesterday
was the first time that I heard you call my name
Since then, so much has changed
I’m still the same man that I was before

Knowing that I can be without
Anything scares me away from being aloneRewind by Pillar
And now, that I know what’s going on
I can look back and see you and I
made you wait, as I turned away

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see you
If I could I could rewind, I’d take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt you

I don’t know if I’ll ever know exactly
how much that I hurt you
Knowing that hurts me everyday
If I could rewind, I would take it away
And not make you wait and I won’t walk away

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see you
If I could rewind, I’d take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt you

I wanna take back all those lies
I wanna take back all those times
I wanna show you with my life
That I’m here for you

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see you
If I could rewind, I’d take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt you

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see you
If I could rewind, I’d take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt you